As a senior staff member of a college and rabbinical school, students
often come to me for advice on choosing a life path and career. In the
last six months, I had two students who decided to end their status as
full-time students and – based on their personalities (and for
completely different reasons) – I recommended that each of them consider
a career in plumbing.
Both took my
advice and found themselves plumbing apprenticeships. One lasted exactly
half a day; his team was called out to a Taco Bell to clear out a
sewage blockage (one can only imagine what that must have been like).
After a couple of hours this former student was 100% convinced that
plumbing was not for him.
By contrast,
the second student found his apprenticeship both fulfilling and
rewarding. I asked him if he minded some of the more unpleasant aspects
and he said to me, “Rabbi, I am low man on the totem pole and there are
some days that I come home in clothes that stink to high heaven, but I
just LOVE my job. I work extremely hard and come home exhausted and often smelly, but I would not have it any other way.”
Upon reflecting
on their sharply differing attitudes, I realized that the main
difference between them was that the first student was just looking for a
way to earn money and make a life for himself. He quickly concluded
that plumbing was not for him and that there must be a better way to
earn money. The second student, however, immediately saw himself as a
plumber and thus he quickly found the job itself fulfilling – despite
its less pleasant moments. In fact, even coming home smelly just
concretized in his mind that he was a plumber.
This week’s
Torah portion has a relevant message about self-definition. In fact, it
has a rather astonishing statement from Moses regarding the issues of
leadership and how he characterizes motherhood.
After
yet another litany of complaints from the Israelites about the lack of
food variety and their continual pining for the “good ol’ days” of
living in Egypt, Moses gets pretty fed up with them and his
responsibilities as their leader and he says to God:
Why are you treating your servant so badly? Don’t you
like me anymore? Why do you place such a burden on me? Am I their
mother who was pregnant with them and carried them in my belly? Did I
give birth to them? Why have You told me that I must carry them in my
bosom and act as a nursemaid would treat an infant until they get to the
land You swore to give to their ancestors? Now they are whining to me
to give them meat. Where can I get enough meat to give all these people?
I cannot be responsible for this entire nation! It is too hard for
me! If You are going to do this to me, just do me a favor and kill me!
Don’t let me stay in this terrible predicament! (Numbers 11:10-15)
The great medieval Biblical commentator known as Rashi explains (ibid 11:12)
that when the Almighty told Moses and Aaron to lead the Jewish people
and carry them in their “bosom” that He meant they must lead even
if/when the Israelites hurl curses, insults, or even stones at them.
This reveals a
fundamental truth about parenting: it inherently involves some abuse by
one’s children. What is going on here? What kind of definition is this
about the responsibilities of parenthood? We must examine the source for
the potential antipathy a child might have toward his parents.
Every child
experiences trauma at birth – being expelled from the perfect
temperature-controlled security of having every need met in the mother’s
womb into a cold, demanding world of (albeit, minimal) independence. As
parents go on to wean, toilet train, and gradually withdraw support,
children naturally feel betrayed and angry. They rage against parents
who are pushing them into independence, perhaps even without
guaranteeing that they have the tools to succeed. This contentious
beginning is one of the sources of the universal parent-child tension
that fills psychology offices worldwide.
The modern solution
of extended financial dependence only serves to exacerbate this
problem. It creates entitled adults who, not having to face life on
their own, fail to develop proper coping skills. This lack of personal
development and resilience upon failure leads to a much more
debilitating issue; the absence of confidence to succeed on their own.
As their personal obligations increase, they become ever more reluctant
to release their financial dependence on others because they don’t have
any proof that they can thrive alone.
Thus, today
we have another cultural phenomenon: whole swaths of modern society –
yes, mainly wealthy families – support their married children’s
lifestyles and life choices, never requiring their children to take
responsibility for their own families or financial obligations. Sadly,
this has begun to create a welfare mentality even among the affluent.
The true goal of parenting, like leadership, is not to
provide perpetual care but to develop independence. Every step in
parenting leads to this; birth and forcing a child to breathe on his
own, weaning and forcing the child to feed himself, potty-training and
forcing the child to take care of his bodily functions and personal
cleanliness, etc. Our goal is to push our children – whether they like
it or not – to their own personal success as independent beings, one
step at a time.
When children
curse their parents for forcing independence, the proper response is
silence – not retaliation. This counterintuitive approach, and
acceptance of abuse from one’s two-year-old, proves to the child that
the parent’s actions are truly for the child’s benefit, not the parent’s
ego. Taking abuse without responding demonstrates genuine love because
there’s no personal benefit to the parent in accepting such treatment.
We find this concept elsewhere in the Torah. In Hebrew the word azov paradoxically
means both ‘abandon’ and ‘help.’ True help enables eventual
abandonment. Meaning, the only way you know that you have truly helped
someone is when they reach the point when they don’t need you anymore.
This is like teaching a child to ride a bicycle; in the beginning you
hold on to him and the bike, but eventually you have to make a conscious
decision to let go. If you continue holding on then he won’t learn to
ride a bike. The goal is always to reach the point where support can be
withdrawn (i.e. “abandonment”) so that independence can be achieved.
But the only
way parents can properly do this is if they define themselves as
parents, first and foremost. We have to constantly remember that
parenting is hard and yes, it can be a lifelong commitment to helping
your children become independent. It certainly comes with challenges,
and we must adapt and make adjustments as our children grow.
Parenting can
be innately contradicting, like when we spend the first three years of
our children’s lives teaching them to walk and talk, and the next
fifteen years telling them to sit down and be quiet. It can also feel
like running a customer service department for customers who have no
interest in following directions or using the product properly. We
continuously get performance reviews from customers who can’t find their
shoes, insist they put them on themselves, and then get angry when they
hurt after putting them on the wrong feet. But we weather it all.
That is, unless we do not
define ourselves as parents and resent the responsibilities of
parenting. This is when we plug our children into devices so that they
won’t bother us and insulate ourselves from taking care of them by
hiring nannies and drivers to take them to soccer practice and play
dates. We actively ignore every opportunity to spend alone time with
them – particularly when their lives are hard and demanding. We
prioritize our careers and delude ourselves into believing that
providing financial security is more important than being present to
support our children.
However,
endless financial support does not teach independence. Defining
ourselves as their parents and building our children’s self-esteem
through unconditional love allows our children to grow confident enough
to make own choices. Parental support is not about guaranteeing that our
children make the choices we would make; it’s about creating an
environment in which children know they are safe to make their own life
choices and we will be there regardless of success or failure. We must
provide the tools to give them the confidence to make their own choices
regarding career, spouse, religiosity, etc.
Most importantly,
we must be prepared to let go and – at every juncture – accept the
resistance that comes with pushing our children toward independence.
This the only way to develop our children into genuine responsible
adults rather than perpetual dependents. It is also the only way to be a
true leader; like Moses and Aaron.
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